July 28, 2015

Noodles for the Hungry Hearts

Noodles for the Hungry Hearts
Quiet and subtle, somewhere in a little room of misery and loneliness, comfort is found. Love, lush and passionate, blooms. But at a wrong place and time, how will it not wither? Wong Kar Wai serves genuine love realness in this elegantly-crafted masterpiece.

In the Mood for Love (2000)
A Wong Kar Wai film

New neighbors in a small apartment in a town in Hong Kong, 1962, Mr. Chow (Tony Leung Chiu Wai) and Mrs. Chan (Maggie Cheung), gradually find about their spouses' affairs, and soon begin their own faltering romance.




Never have I seen such brutality in a film about love this good. The plot deliberately offers a limited portion of the story, yet equally demands and showcases immense, raw emotions. The leads always sharing the most intimate, yet heart-breaking of scenes without the need of touching or even standing remotely close together. Without much words, and few short uttered dialogues, the pain, desire, and longing are expressed and held back simultaneously.

Wong maintains the distance between the leads, often playing with mirrors, showing the protagonists in separate frames. Every scene simply balanced the contained emotions and screaming hunger of the characters. With shots lurking through windows and down the passageways like the viewers are still outsiders. Empty doorways. Dark staircase. Heavy rainfall. Crowded streets and unwanted noises. The stunning, vivid palettes further complete the film's unworldly-adoring cinematography. The camera's focus remains still, encapsulating the characters' paradox of emotions. While the music also fails not to make the pain lingers. The shot slowly pans as the haunting soundtrack plays like a celebration of a found lonely soul and sudden mourning of an immediate separation. I find myself as drawn to Chow and Su as they are to each other. Wai and Cheung are perfection! I root for them. I sympathize as they both try to find solace, but are prevented by the mistakes of their spouses and their own betrayal.

Getting noodles has never been this painful. Now stained, it becomes a clear reminder of a beautiful tragedy. Wong hits exactly where it hurts the most, ultimately leading the ambiguous relationship of the two to its own downfall. Without excuse and empathy, Wong breaks hearts. Not only of Chow and Su's, but far worse, of the viewers'.

It is a restless moment. She has kept her head lowered... to give him a chance to come closer. But he could not, for lack of courage. She turns and walks away.

Definitely among the finest gems in the industry, In the Mood for Love's timeless beauty is beyond words. Just too darn good for the eyes and soul. An instant obsession.

July 16, 2015

In My Twenties

"You ask what I have done with my life. Why I am 22 with so many unfinished selves. So many futures I could not commit to. But you don't know how much of my time has been spent keeping myself alive."  Lora Mathis, I Think I'm Doing Great


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July 11, 2015

Misery Doesn't Need Company

Better be miserable now
than to be miserable every day
for the rest of your life.
This may sound improbable at the moment,
but one day, it won't.
You will walk again.
Run, even.
This pain you're feeling,
will be of good use,
one day.
So choose your misery:
the one that lingers;
or the one that disappears.

July 5, 2015

Zombies

Zombies



On a gloomy Friday night, you think about your life choices. You tell yourself to reach out to someone. But you decide not to. You still refuse to share your demons with anyone. You fight the urge, repeating words, "They would never understand." People close to you keep proving you right, anyway. So you talk yourself into bottling everything up again. You resist the temptation to drown your soul.

On a fun Saturday night, you almost recognize your laughter. But, not really. All you remember is the aching. All you feel is the aching. You want to quit again. The pain keeps swallowing you whole. You try to fight it. You laugh. You laugh at it. You laugh at yourself until you feel numb. Until you fool yourself enough that it is locked up some place you would dare not visit. Some place dark. Inside of you. And you tell yourself to forget over and over. Until you do.

On a beautiful Sunday morning, everything comes back. The locks are opened as easily as you open them eyes. Your own thoughts betray you. Your dark thoughts you secretly cherish. But you stay. A little longer, every time. There, at some place, with black clouds above your head, you stay despite your resistance. There, where you left your heart. You hope to leave someday.

On a basic Monday, you wake up again. Not even a stain of dirt on your feet. You look normal again. Oh, how you look naturally normal. You wash your face. You're going to make it. Until you don't.

“My point is: in this whole wide world the only person you can depend on is you.” — Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

(ceramic art by jessica harrison)

July 3, 2015

Christening: Alexandria

Christening: Alexandria
A minimalist layout for baby Ria who will be christened on July 4.
 

She Says, She Says

"I have long needed time to not think about home, to not think about the things back home that have been weighing heavily on me — work, relationships, lack thereof. The smallness, the claustrophobia of it. All the things I’ve been trying to shrug off. I’m happy, don’t get me wrong. But that doesn’t mean that I haven’t also been keeping some hurts close to my chest. They won’t leave me when I’m home, so I guess I have to physically leave them behind and see if that works, see if that helps me forget." Regina Belmonte

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