Attempt Of Looking Up

The early to mid-twenties stage may be one of the most confusing periods in a person's lifetime. I'd like to think that it is part of the crucial process that could 'make you or break you'. And in a world full of possibilities and rejections, for people who are fortunate enough to have the time and the privilege to make a choice, indeed, it is quite difficult to decide where you want your journey to begin and even to end.

Lucky (and of course, hardworking and determined) are the ones who have found their supposed calling at an age freedom and independence make the biggest altering factors. Having the quarter of their lives figured out. Might be nice. But to those who are still feeling baffled and stuck, life is, somehow, more complicated than it seems. In the eyes of a married man, it might be liberating. In the minds of the younger generation, they cannot wait to be 22. In your demented-like brain, you want to get over it already. Because most things pretty suck at the moment. Learning to juggle wants and needs while trying to get used to the adult world's responsibilities. Chasing people and running away from things. Keeping track of your old and new mistakes and embarking on an unfamiliar territory. Mastering the art of disappointment and proving one's self. Everything appears inadequate. Yet, at the same time, everything feels overwhelming. And in spite of the unimaginable number of different doors awaiting to be discovered, there are blinding hurdles beside every one of them, either trying to block you or make you lose your way. Everyone, at this point, is, more or less, having thoughts heavily-tangled like a headphone cord in a jeans' right-side pocket. Wondering if these petty troubles that make up your world right now will ever really go away. Fearing it won't. Hoping it would. Dreaming they already are.

I guess, no matter what age, the future will always look frightening. Stimulating, yes. But equally terrifying. And whether you triumph against the dark voices inside your head or you keep going through the gaping limbo, life will remain filled with anxious events and only occasional mind-freeing portions. You impatiently entangle the stubborn knots. But don't quit.

photo: up in the air // Sony A300 (c)